Something is Wrong

Sometimes I feel ashamed of the Christian I am and dream of the one I should be. How is that for an opening sentence. Man no pulling punches there. I wonder how many young people out there even know what pulling punches is. But this isn't about that. This blog is about a realization that I am not as good as I want, and really would love to fix that.

I love Minecraft. I really do. Sure ton of kids play it, but getting to create and build and imagine whatever I can, it is an addicting and fun game. I recently blocked off and drained a huge area around a Ocean Monument. For those of you that might read this and not know what that is, look at the picture to the right. that whole area, from the top of the sand all the way to the grey stone at the bottom, I removed all the water from there. Also inside the big building.

Not only did I remove all that, but I also took out all the rooms inside and built two small farms inside. Not a plant farm, but a guardian farm. Basically, a farm to get fish to spawn and then fall to their deaths. Not too pleasant I know, but they drop things I really want so I can build more cool things. Anyways, all of this, from start to finish, over the course of a week, probably took me over one day. That is one twenty-four hour period and who knows how much longer really. It was a very long time.

When I was done I sat back, smile ear to ear, and marveled at my work. I love this place, the farm isn't all that great, maybe 1000-1200 drops per hour, but the work I put into the redstone and building my first automatic sorting storage system, and the pickaxes I lost while mining just the inside of the Monument. It just makes me happy to see and spend time in, even if it isn't even done yet. I still have to do the inside decorations, but that is okay, I can take it slow now.

But today I sat back, while I was checking the dph rate, and thought to myself. I spend hours a day with Minecraft. If I am not in the game, I am watching videos and tutorials. I bought a book that looks like the icon for a grass block. I have a Redstone ore block that lights up, as well as a torch. I also have Minecraft wallpaper on my PC and tablet. I really like the game. But I never spend this much time with my bible. I don't pray as much as I watch videos on Youtube. Minecraft will be part of my life for a short duration of living, but God will be part of my life forever. Why don't I spend more time with him?

Lately, as you might have surmised from my past blogs, I have been reevaluating my life. Where I am is okay. It is safe, comfortable, and actually rather fun. But I keep getting a feeling that God wants me in a place that is slightly different. I don't know how different, hope it's not a lot, but if it is, that is okay. but I guess first I need to find that correct path that will lead me there.

Truth be told, I am kind of scared where I might go. Maybe not the destination, but the journey can be dangerous. But one needs to sit back and think, will it be dangerous? Probably. Will I get hurt? Possible. Will it be worth every ache, scar, and pain? Most definitely it will be. I really think we spend way too much time with things that aren't God and not enough with God. I don't want to be a once-a-week-and-twice-for-the-holidays type of Christian. Those Christians have too big of mouths and not enough Christ in them. I want to be a follower of The Way, a follower of Jesus. I want to be one of his talmid.