2017-04-30

Team

Team, from the old English, family, company, band. From the Old Frisian line of descent. From the PIE root duek- meaning to lead. aqueduct; conduce; conducive; conduct; conductor; conduit; educate; education; introduce; introduction; produce; production; team (n.); tie

In today's world, team is used so often. In video games you join teams in combat or adventure in order to do something bigger than you can do on your own. In the work place, you join a team, again, to be able to do something bigger and better than a single person could. In marriage, it is often called teamwork as the man and woman unite and become one family. Sports have teams, horses have teams, even fans of stupid books about shiny vampire have teams.

As you read above team is family, team is a band of brothers and sisters, it is to lead, and that last bit I feel is too often forgotten in this day and age. Every team needs a single leader, one who brings the individuals together to be one assembly. Like a conductor of an orchestra, they take each part of the machine and build something that becomes so much more than the parts. But today it seems multiple people try to lead the same thing, bringing about a divide that often times is not able to mend. We are all striving to make a name, be the center, to lead, even when our character is not that of leader, but a follower, or an aid. Being a follower is not a bad thing, often times it is the followers who make the biggest impact for the team.

 Sometimes you might be called to be a leader, but not of a large team, maybe you specialize with a handful of people and still take direction from the leader of the whole. Sometimes the Team needs to be made up of smaller cells to accomplish what a larger group could not. 

I have been pretty lucky, for the most part, to be part of a team who do work together and help each other be better at my job. When all is working well in our team, we do very good, we hit sales targets, we succeed in all our goals, it sometimes we have hiccups that crack the solidness of our group. Not too often but those cracks that appear, when mended and healed, like bones strengthen the rest of us and we are better still.

But when I think of teams, I do not always think of church. I should be thinking this, and probably one of the first thoughts I have, because the definition of team fits exactly what the church should be. We introduce, educate, lead and produce family. We are one unit, working together, much like a body to spread Jesus to the whole world. 

Family, as the church is often called, is what we should be, but we are and best we are a blend family, dysfunctional occasionally , and at worst, a broken home. We fight among ourselves to be leaders, for control, and refuse to work together, to unite strengths of the many to make a single powerhouse.

A company, as the church is often seen by the masses, because some focus on money, raising money to do things they want, forgetting that if God wants us to do it, the money will be taken care of. Some view us as selling the gospel to the needy. Being compared to a company is not a bad thing always, we just need to watch which part.

Duek... What's that mean? Well above I quoted it meaning line of descent. And that part, though not really in the current word team, is the most essential part of the root. And a root it is, like a tree our roots leads us back to a line of descent back to the creator of everything. Adopted or not, we are part of the family of God. Regardless of denomination or the differences between Catholic and Protestant, if we are true followers of Christ, we are one family, one team, and one line of descent back to Jesus.

Jesus is also part of our team, so that we can go into the darkest places because there is a lot of good to be done there. He is our conductor and leader, he makes beautiful music with each of us, despite us being broken instruments. And he will make us into so much more, if only we allow him to work and lead us in all we do.

2017-04-12

Life is Hard

Sometimes, despite all I do, I can't help but feel sad, miserable, trapped, and depressed. Usually it is outside forces that dig at me, snide comments, or some that aren't even meant to hurt but they do nonetheless. Sometimes it's hearing someone lifted up, praised for doing some they do anyways, and not hearing the same words when you go out of you way, or are very proud about something and it goes unnoticed.

Sometimes it's an introspective thought and you find you aren't where you want to be, and maybe farther a way than you should be. Sometimes it's just the weather, or a bit of boredom, but regardless of the cause. When you get down to the feeling broken part it is hard to get a hand hold.

It makes me want to sell all I have, take a few things with me, and disappear into the night. Begin a new life as someone else. Pretend that I am someone else for a while. “Fake your death and only tell your closest friend." But reality kicks its way in and you realize unless you actually change who you are, you can't even pretend to be someone else for very long.

My mother always talks about how when she gets in front of people to give a message or whatever, she pretends to be a confident person. Puts on an air, pretends to be someone she's not. I guess I am not a good actor because this is hard for me. It's hard to hide my hurt when I hear that someone would go out of there way to help someone else reach their goal, when you are close to yours and they don't, or won't, help you out.

And I think this is the main thing that's got me down right now. I see others getting help, or succeeding in something, when I am struggling with the same thing, yet get no help or even a word about it. It has to do with fairness, which I do know the world is not fair, by any meaning of the word. The world is cruel and hurtful. It wants to knock you down each chance it gets. The world and the people in it do not care if you succeed in anything, and usually it seems they want to make you fail. 

YouTube, Facebook, Twitter, they show how the world wants to beat you down over and over again. You give an opinion, they smash it to pieces, call you names, make you feel like dirt. You feel good about something, someone always has to find a comment to hit you in the gut. This is a world where the only way to make oneself feel better is to belittle and hurt those around them. It is a world where entitlement is thrown around like a human right. Those who claim to want and fight for equality will stop at nothing until they are better than the next person. And the person who just wants to live their lives out quietly will be punished for being a coward, or people assume they are unmotivated, or aren't given a chance.

But occasionally you get a person that actually helps out and pushes you to the goal. Someone who encourages and builds even at their expense. I have one guy in mind who when he realized he would not hit his goal for the month, he helped me hit my goal. This is the kind of people we need more. Someone who doesn't think of themselves constantly. Someone who will sit back and take a look at the scene, will realize that life isn't fair, but is willing to help despite of the unfairness.

Guys, life is hard. Life outside of just living sometimes seems impossible. Sometimes I want nothing more than to lay down and disappear. But I am going to keep plugging away at the impossible mountain that life is. Eventually there will be a tunnel through it or a path smoothed out up it, it might wind and twist, sometimes having to go down hill a bit, but I will either make it through it, or come out on top.